First of all, Liam York is the most adorable creature to ever walk the earth. He knows 'metal' or 'rock and roll' fingers.
I've been so upset lately and my dreams have reflected it!
I've dreamed/dreampt? about kissing boys, Zack Morris to be exact. I lost my phone on a train and he was trying to help me find it. I kissed him and when I realized what I was doing, I ran away. I kissed Luke too, but we won't go there. I ran away from him as well.
But now I'm leaning towards this new concept called being happy. I can't liv my life through other people or push what I believe or how I feel on them either.
I'm trying this new thing where I try to accept Joey for who he is and not try to change him. This is a lot harder than one would expect. I am very fond of picking and bickering. But last night, I let him drink. In fact, I allowed him to drink too much. But you know what I found out? He was so much more loving towards me, so in the end, I didn't even mind. But I still have a hard time with it. I mean, make up your mind. Do you want to be good; not get drunk, not be sketch, not cuss? Or do you even care? I feel like Sunday through Tuesday you care and then Wednesday through Saturday you could care less. This is where I am stuck in a rut. Maybe we'll talk about it soon. Probably not. But one thing I can say is that I enjoyed myself tremendously last night and all because I was thinking positively and not dwelling.
Lesson learned: Don't dwell. Be happy.
I worked this morning at the Salon, now I'm going to nap, and then I am shooting El Camino's winter formal! It'll be a grand ol' time with Jeff and Jerri.
I've dreamed/dreampt? about kissing boys, Zack Morris to be exact. I lost my phone on a train and he was trying to help me find it. I kissed him and when I realized what I was doing, I ran away. I kissed Luke too, but we won't go there. I ran away from him as well.
But now I'm leaning towards this new concept called being happy. I can't liv my life through other people or push what I believe or how I feel on them either.
I'm trying this new thing where I try to accept Joey for who he is and not try to change him. This is a lot harder than one would expect. I am very fond of picking and bickering. But last night, I let him drink. In fact, I allowed him to drink too much. But you know what I found out? He was so much more loving towards me, so in the end, I didn't even mind. But I still have a hard time with it. I mean, make up your mind. Do you want to be good; not get drunk, not be sketch, not cuss? Or do you even care? I feel like Sunday through Tuesday you care and then Wednesday through Saturday you could care less. This is where I am stuck in a rut. Maybe we'll talk about it soon. Probably not. But one thing I can say is that I enjoyed myself tremendously last night and all because I was thinking positively and not dwelling.
Lesson learned: Don't dwell. Be happy.
I worked this morning at the Salon, now I'm going to nap, and then I am shooting El Camino's winter formal! It'll be a grand ol' time with Jeff and Jerri.
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