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If you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you always got!

I'm starting to have bad dreams again. Last night I had a stalker who was following me at some party and this new girl, Jonah, that I met was helping me avoid the situation. But eventually he was coming towards me but passed right by me and went into the bathroom. He was taking forever and for some reason I couldn't leave the room I was in. Finally the door opened but he wasn't there, after a second he stepped into the opening and was way scary looking, like he had been possessed or something... So then he stalks right by me again and is talking crazy like "help me, I need you to carry me. I need help!" He's yelling this to my Papa. Papa looks at him and is going to help him and then the guy punches Papa in the face and threatens to steal me away! And then I woke up. He punched my grandpa in the face! What kind of craziness is that!I'm nuts.

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First of all, Liam York is the most adorable creature to ever walk the earth. He knows 'metal' or 'rock and roll' fingers.

I've been so upset lately and my dreams have reflected it!
I've dreamed/dreampt? about kissing boys, Zack Morris to be exact. I lost my phone on a train and he was trying to help me find it. I kissed him and when I realized what I was doing, I ran away. I kissed Luke too, but we won't go there. I ran away from him as well.

But now I'm leaning towards this new concept called being happy. I can't liv my life through other people or push what I believe or how I feel on them either.

I'm trying this new thing where I try to accept Joey for who he is and not try to change him. This is a lot harder than one would expect. I am very fond of picking and bickering. But last night, I let him drink. In fact, I allowed him to drink too much. But you know what I found out? He was so much more loving towards me, so in the end, I didn't even mind. But I still have a hard time with it. I mean, make up your mind. Do you want to be good; not get drunk, not be sketch, not cuss? Or do you even care? I feel like Sunday through Tuesday you care and then Wednesday through Saturday you could care less. This is where I am stuck in a rut. Maybe we'll talk about it soon. Probably not. But one thing I can say is that I enjoyed myself tremendously last night and all because I was thinking positively and not dwelling.

Lesson learned: Don't dwell. Be happy.

I worked this morning at the Salon, now I'm going to nap, and then I am shooting El Camino's winter formal! It'll be a grand ol' time with Jeff and Jerri.